Xanga's Demise

You know what? I'm most likely just going to stop all of this right now. I can't seem to remember or put aside any time to keep up with xanga - and it seems to me that xanga is no longer the big thing. It's myspace.

At any rate, I will keep this xanga just as a souvenier at the very least. I refuse to conform to society. I refuse to create a myspace!!! There! What now!?!

If I feel like posting on this website again, I...oh, I don't know. Don't expect too much from this website any more.

K

This week has freak'n sucked!!!!

OMGosh. Well before I get into this week's drama, let me apologize to all of those who have been waiting for me to post. After I tell you what's been going on, you'll understand why I haven't.

Ok, first thing. This week has sucked really bad! Like really really bad!

On monday, I got grounded for two weeks because I went out to lunch with Ty and both my sister and I lied about it.

Tuesday-Wednesday: I have so much work that I can hardly speak.

Thursday: I break down crying in the middle of the hallway. That was so embarrassing and all Ty could do was stare at me, so naturally, that made me mad. He didn't say a single thing. I couldn't belive him. And then he wants to know what's wrong and everything - you don't ask someone what is wrong while they are crying. You just don't do that because (1) they can't talk and (2) you're just going to make it worse.

Friday: I'm still recovering from the previous day and Ty still wants to know what's wrong with me. I've told him four times, I have so much to do and there's a lot of stress, but he insists on not encouraging me or supporting me. He just doesn't say anything. Then when we were going to lunch, I yell at him because - Aaaahhhh!!! I'm still so frustrated!!

Saturday: I took the freak'n SAT at Lynch and just about didn't make it through it. I didn't want to tell my dad that because he was all like, "A lot is riding on what you get on this. Do good...." I freak'n almost fell alseep and, is it me, or are there more math parts this time?

Sunday (today): I don't even get to sleep in because we have to clean up the house because we have an inspector-carpet guy coming. so I get up and clean the house until one o'clock. Now, I'm writing this and I have a six hour project to start on.

Then tomorrow, I have to go back to school. You know, I considered skipping tomorrow, but............

K

To all whom this may concern....

Firstly, I'm not abusing "snarf." I know that he has been ya'll (not just yours) friend, for a long time. I know that. I also know that he's a nice guy, but not for me. He really is nice. We laughed some. It wasn't all bad.

Secondly, it is wrong of me to put this on a public webpage, however, he's not going to come to my webpage because he doesn't know my xanga site or whatever. My name's not on here. And if he does read it, I want him to know that I was a little harsh and it was uncalled for - I was upset though.  

Thirdly....I'm on third, right? Yeah, thirdly, I mean for this to be seen only by my closest friends. I've had one stranger come onto this website before and only left one message. Most of the people who are on my website, are....well....you guys.

Lastly, I don't appreciate you cursing at me, Turtle. It hurts coming from a friend.

K

You know, I should probably write some stuff, shouldn't I? Well, I can't. I'm writing a paper right now and can't be distrubed. *yeah right*

but seriously, I felt guilty for not writing in so long and so decided to drop a quick note just to let you guys know that I'm alive.

For those of you who aren't yet aware of the "happenings" of Saturday night (i.e. Homecoming dance), allow me to fill you in.

I had a date. For those of you who know, great, the rest of you...find out from someone else.

Here's what went wrong and why I want to kind of cut it off with (lets call him) Snarf.

1. he didn't offer to pay for anything.

2. he didn't open the doors for me.

3. he got up and left three times with his cell phone and didn't even bother to have a reasonable excuse.

4. I got one compliment all night from him.

5. he didn't feel right - if that makes sense (and for all of you pervs, don't go there.)

Becuase I know that Ty won't read this - he no longer is connected in xanga (i think) - I must admit that I miss him. I miss that he respected me and treated me right.

Secondly, thank you to JP for talking with me and simply being there.

Third(ly), thank you to elias for allowing me to have at least one dance with a friend.

Fourth(ly), thank you to beth for telling me the straight up truth that "snarf" wasn't good enough for me.

Fifthly, thank you to william for doing absolutely nothing the entire night and being a complete guy in my moment of need. Thank you.

Well, that concludes this episode of wasting time with me. sorry if I went on a rant. didn't mean to.

K

byebye

Ok, oh my gosh!

I can not help it if I don't have as much freak'n spare time as you, loser! I can't believe you're getting mad at me because my school work is actually HARD! LOSER!!

I actually have a life! Good night!

You want a post, Turtle?! HERE!

K